Wow, been a while since I posted anything. Time sure slips away. Anyway...
I find myself at times getting lost in the hours and minutes that each day brings. I, like so many others wonder where time flies. My days are filled with mundane things such as, checking my computers email, my online games, my messages. Then some days, its work, errands and phone conversations. Then when evening comes, children's voices fill the room, there are dinners to be fixed and homework to look over, cleaning up after everyone and then watching some TV. Sounds boring doesn't it? I strive to find the importance of it all! Don't get me wrong, there are days filled with laughter and some days are truly rewarding. I try to piece it all together to fit inside whats called "My World".
Most individuals don't really know me, even family hasn't ever taken the time to know who I truly am. Maybe I am just unapproachable? My thoughts have changed over the years on whats important in life, how to live my life, and what to expect from life. I detest liers more and more each day and wonder why people have to lie to make themselves appear better? Just admit who you are, what you are, and don't hide your thoughts and feelings! We all have this life we live and are all heading in the same direction. How does one individual make a part of their life so much more important than another aspect of it? How does all those pieces "fit" for that individual? Do they ever look at those pieces and wonder why they are so important to them? I think for the most part most people are always seeking the meaning of life. But ONE shouldn't lie to make that life appear better than others. Lieing doesn't bring Meaning!
My World can appear mundane to most. It is to me at times. But I am always striving to be a better person, and also to find reward in helping others. Some people just become so consumed with "self". I don't have time for these people in my life any more. Time meaning...I don't want them in my life. Although I strive to find good in all, and try to be a better person, I can not allow myself to be a doormat either. People need to look at how they touch others, how their actions cause reactions. How their mannerisms and the daily "pieces of their lives" can affect the well-being of others.
The hours and minutes of my life that make up my days, are for ME! Not for others to tread on them and disrupt them. These days are mine to hold onto and to seek-out the reasons for them....to find their importance. IF by chance MY WORLD and YOUR WORLD meet in harmony, that's all the better. But spend time trying to understand your OWN important reasons before you walk into someones life.
Ok, guess I am rambling. Until another day
